To all the "poison" in my life:

You are the venom in my veins,

you are driving me insane.

Words spoken,

Words twisted,

Words that were meant to 'uplift'...

Love confused,

Binds twisted,

Blood thinner than water...

The thorns on my rosebush that I did not see.

Goals will be prevailed,

New love will be found.

Old left behind with

bittersweet memories.

I sit in silence while the poison you speak seeps through my veins. 

I cast it out, and stand bold and confident,

as I start a new journey.

Hurt eventually forgiven,

but not first without apology.

potty training

Finally Mia is again showing signs of potty training!!! YEY!!! Back in January I was SURE that Mia was fully potty trained; she was going every 20 mins and not wearing diapers, then I moved back to Ontario and she fell from it and basically wanted nothing to do with it. But yesterday Mia went on the potty 7 times!!! And one of them was even a bm! Today she even asked to go potty more than once! CUUUTE! 

This week she is spending 5 full days/nights with her daddy, while he is visiting from Calgary, and I am off to spend some quality time with my girls, so hopefully she doesn't fall short and give up on it again! Common Mia mommy knows you can do it! My goal is fully potty trained by September! 

Weaned :(

My trip out west was such a great time! I've had Mia full-time since she was born so I think a 9 day vacation was much deserved! The trip did result in Mia's weaning, on the one hand, it sucks! I miss having those one-on-one moments with Mia in the silence of our bedroom and being just quite together, but on the other hand I am jumping for joy as this means I have more freedom! I can buy push-up under wire bras again and I can go spend the night at someones house and not have to worry about Mia needing me. I don't regret a moment of nursing Mia till she was 2, and I never thought that I would wean her this early, it just happened. But I am thankful for the time that I was able to spend with Mia nursing. And I can't wait till I get to go thru pregnancy, nursing and all the jazz again, who knows when that will be, but I look forward to it! :)

Nursed Mia from May 11, 2006 till May 15, 2008. 2 years and 4 days of pure bliss!

Driving, Driving, Driving...

So Monica and I spent the last two and half days driving out west to Calgary, to pick up my van and pack up Mia's toys, and such. What a LONG tiring drive! But man alive we have been having such a great time! Plus I think it was much needed to come here so I can have some one-on-one conversations with Paul. Its starting a healing process for me, and whether I move on or keep trying either way, I can forgive Paul now and not be as hurt. So I am very thankful that I have made the trek out west. I do miss Mia tremendously though and can't wait to be back home again with her in my arms!

HAPPY 2ND BIRTHDAY TO MY BEAUTIFUL BABY GIRL
MIA!!!!

Before I was a mom

Before I was a mom,

There was no worry of saggy boobs, and questions of how long will you nurse.

There was no sleepless nights (unless I wanted them).

There was no sticky carpets from fallen food.

There was no cleaning of dirty diapers.

There was no crying as I watched my baby get a needle.


There was time for beautiful hair and makeup.

There was time for late night visits with friends.

There was time for super long showers, the involved a good soak and silky smooth legs.

There was time for drinking a hot beverage and enjoying a long book without interruptions.


But now there is toys everywhere, spit on my clothes, dirty dishes in my sink, half done hair,

singing some silly song for my baby, and lots and lots of love to fill my home.


Before I was a mom there were luxuries that I now miss, but I wouldn't trade them for anything,

because my baby Mia is my now my everything!

Happy Mama's day!

Summer, summer, summer days.....

Man alive....I was really enjoying those beautiful summer days!!! Mia and I went out for a walk every single day to the park and had to wear sunscreen for once in a very LONG time!!! It was gorgeous! Not having to worry about winter coats or boots! LOVED IT! But here we are again with COLD weather!!! I let out a BOOOOOO on the world for that one! I really hope we don't get any snow.

Besides the lovely weather, I am STILL losing weight!!! YEY! I am at a total weight loss of -26 lbs right now and I am highly aiming for a -4lb weight loss this week which will round me out (or slim me down) to a whopping -30lbs in just 7 weeks!!!! Looking back on my life of yo-yo dieting of gain and loss' I can't even begin to describe how amazing it feels to finally be doing something that's working! I love it! And I can't wait for more summer days so I can show off my better body!!!!!