The last 40lbs

It seems that I have been staring the last 40lbs in the face since October...I look at it and think what the heck!? The first 60lbs came off like butter on a hot pan, but this last 40lbs is sticking!!! It doesn't want to budge...but to be honest it is partially my fault! I go from being super good one day, to meh the next...but I am maintaining, and that I am really proud of! But I am about to kick it in the ass! I am cutting the fat burners out because I think I have been just too darn dependent upon them, and I am going to journal, journal, journal all my food and workout daily (minus saturday, my day of rest!) And I am also going to step off the scale for a full month to just focus, and not being staring at the numbers! I can do it! I want to be at my goal weight by may...but who knows maybe I will be happy at 170lbs....I am pretty happy right now, but I want to be healthy and happy...so here it goes....I am off to the gym...and off to losing that last 40lbs!!!!

Its beginning to look a lot like Christmas....

Here comes Santa Clause, Here comes Santa Clause, Right down Santa Clause Lane.....

Ahhhh snow and Christmas!! I LOVE it!!! I am so excited for a wonderful Christmas this year! I was so worried that I wasn`t going to be able to swing Christmas this year, but I am lucky enough to have saved enough and got EVERYTHING I needed for everyone!! :o) I officially finished as of yesterday!! And James and I were smart and bought our C-mas present for each other back in October (a wii) so we wouldn`t have to pile it on top of the list of presents we needed to get!

Today I was taking Mia home from daycare and we drove past a house with TONS of those blow up characters (sooooo many that you could hardly see the house!!) And Mia screams out `LOOK Mommy!! It`s Christmas!!!` So I said oh, what is Christmas Mia, and she says `Santa is Christmas` LOL it was too cute!!

Mia has officially potty trained! We are almost accident free minus the BM`s...it will come! We went for our Christmas photo shoot today and she was playing in the snow for an hour and a half and she didn`t even have an accident! Mommy is soooo proud!! So after our photo shoot we went and had a yummy hot chocolate (Mia`s first one ever!!) She LOVED it!!

School is going well, I have a 95% average right now, and it is flying by! I am working in a nursing home right now, and REALLY loving it! I spent the last 5 days in the Alzheimer's wing and am really sad to be moving on, it was such a great experience, and the residents were just a joy to be around! I never thought I would enjoy working in LTC (long term care) But it has been SO much fun!

Looking forward to Christmas...hoping Mia and I get our house soon! Would be so nice to be into it before Christmas so we could decorate...*Fingers Crossed*

4 weeks in....

Were into week 4 of school and daycare and we are both LOVE'N it!!!

Mia has two wonderful daycare teachers named Anita and Lisa who mean the world to her. She is always going on about how much she loves them and sings songs that they teach her! They rave about Mia too as she is the oldest in the class and likes to help a lot! Mia has informed me that she has a boyfriend, who's name is "Zachary" who is 2, and she is 2.5!!!! <--- her words not mine! I am so happy that she is enjoying it, we didn't even have one day of crying! Just lots of happiness and fun! Its great! My mom has been taking Mia to daycare every morning, but Nana is off on the road with papa starting tomorrow, so I have to get up extra early now to take Mia to daycare...but we will survive it! :0)

As for school, I really do love it! Its ALOT of work...I can't even stress alot enough...I am up to my neck in homework, tests and assginments, 24/7 as I finish one I get another handed to me! *sigh* But I will done this whole course load thing by the end of dec. Then I am off to community placement and I only have to worry about my exam on Jan. 20th. So I its going to fly by! ( or so I hope )!

My b-day is around the corner, and I think I am going to have the house to myself with no one to make me a cake...do you think it would be sad to make my own cake?!?!? LOL Maybe I will make James make me a cake...I wonder if he can?

a week and a few days?!?!?!

Oh my, oh my....its only a week and few days till I start school and Mia starts full-time daycare!! Its going to be a crazy busy time in our lives, but super exciting! I am going to be taking my PSW (personal support worker) and the course last 6 months, 300 and some odd hours of the course are on site in a nursing home though, so it should be a fun time! Then once I am done, I will working full-time (hopefully!!)

Mia has been talking non-stop about her new daycare since we visited it, she always asks when we are getting ready in the morning if today is the day she is going to daycare. Its sooo cute! I am hoping that the transition from being at home with mommy to full-time daycare goes really easily for Mia and that I am not called out of school to a bawling Mia. That would just break my heart! But Mia is a very out going little girl, and loves people, so I am really keeping my fingers, and toes crossed that she doesn't freak out! LOL

I still can't belive that summer is drawing to an end...how does summer go so quickly??!?! But...I have enjoyed every moment of summer and taken it all in, because its crazy how fast its going! I can't wait till next summer though, as Mia and I are in Monica's wedding, and its ganna be an AWESOME time! And hopefully we will get to go visit Uncle Jake next summer...because that is the one thing that was missing from our typical summers....VANCOUVER!

Well we're off to go enjoy some park time before me blink and summer is gone!

Summer+Beach= LOVE

I LOVE SUMMER!!!! I can't belive how much, I've missed summer! Its such a great thing!! Mia and I have been beaching it like crazy this year, we've been to Grand Bend once, and Port Stanely on a weekly basis. Gotta LOVE it! Mia is even now swimming on her own in the pool (life jacket assisted that is!) She gets soo excited when she is swimming, saying, "hook at meeee...." Its way too adorable! I never thought she would be swimming on her own in the pool this year, but Uncle Vince was over this weekend and got Mia over her fear of the pool! Rock on Uncle Vince!

Mia is still slowly but surely potty training, she likes the treat aspect of it. She'll pee a little then get a smartie, then pee a little more 5 seconds later in anticipation for another smartie! Shes got the whole thing figured out to a 'T' LOL!

Mia and I went to go check out her hopefully new daycare for september, and I am in LOVE with it! It is such a home like enviroment, with lots of loving teachers! Mia didn't want to leave, she wanted to stay and play with all the kids. I think the transition to full-time daycare will be harder on mom than it will be on Mia! She'll run and play and I'll be fretting about her all day! :-)

Hope everyone is enjoying thier summer days as much as we are!!! Now we just need to add some camping to our mix!

To all the "poison" in my life:

You are the venom in my veins,

you are driving me insane.

Words spoken,

Words twisted,

Words that were meant to 'uplift'...

Love confused,

Binds twisted,

Blood thinner than water...

The thorns on my rosebush that I did not see.

Goals will be prevailed,

New love will be found.

Old left behind with

bittersweet memories.

I sit in silence while the poison you speak seeps through my veins. 

I cast it out, and stand bold and confident,

as I start a new journey.

Hurt eventually forgiven,

but not first without apology.

potty training

Finally Mia is again showing signs of potty training!!! YEY!!! Back in January I was SURE that Mia was fully potty trained; she was going every 20 mins and not wearing diapers, then I moved back to Ontario and she fell from it and basically wanted nothing to do with it. But yesterday Mia went on the potty 7 times!!! And one of them was even a bm! Today she even asked to go potty more than once! CUUUTE! 

This week she is spending 5 full days/nights with her daddy, while he is visiting from Calgary, and I am off to spend some quality time with my girls, so hopefully she doesn't fall short and give up on it again! Common Mia mommy knows you can do it! My goal is fully potty trained by September!